Oh goodness. I did something tonight that I haven't done in a long, long, time. I went through all my old IG photos from way back when. From way back when I was pregnant. I know all mothers must go through looking at old photos of their little ones at some point, and for me, it was tonight.
I now have a 16 (and a half) month old baby girl. A baby I GREW inside me and provided life for, for over ten months. How can time go by so quickly? When I had just had Berlyn, people would tell me to enjoy it because it goes by fast. I always shrugged it off, like it wouldn't go by fast for ME. I always thought it was just something 'they' say. But now, lying in my bed, listening to my toddler stir around in her crib two doors down, I really do believe that time goes by too fast.
I remember when I just had her and she slept next to me in her bassinet. Every few hours she would stir around and somehow manage her way out of her swaddle. An escape artist. I would wake up to change her, feed her, and just stare at her. Just me and her. Our special time that we had together as mother and daughter. Sometimes she would do things that would make me laugh, causing Justin to wake up for a quick second. But he would fall back asleep, and it would be just us two again. Days would pass, then weeks, then months. Now it seems like the past year was a blur. I wish I could rewind time and live through it all a bazillion times.
But now she is older and she has, of course, changed. She has a personality, and a way of doing things her way. But I wouldn't change a thing. She is my light and my reason for living. My little bunny, my goose, my sweet baby Berlyn, I love you so much.